In The Ashes

There are nights
Filled with the most desolate and loathsome hours
In these times,
I see the world
Smoldering in the ashes
Of thought less hate,
Bringing me out of my nightmares
To awake to a world much more Cruel
Smoke collapsing my lungs,
Like a mine
Just to cover up the sorrow
That seems to find it's way
Under my skin,
Not a soul to hear me confess
The endless sins of this life
Only my shaking hands,
And the tainted imagery that haunts my memory
Like a ghost in the fog,
Those nights are never ending
Beginning in the middle,
Trapping me just at the end,
Showing me,
The phoenix I am not
Rising from the ashes
To start a new,
Agony will hit my throat tonight,
Realization will set in my chest,
As I flee these cracked portraits,
And fight for my end
But I can not die,
I can not rest
I am like a fish,
Dancing for a breath
Caught out of water,
Watching this world set ablaze.